Simplicity

Simplicity hmmmm...

I think that's the way I want things, but trying to get things there is the task I dread going through.
The end result will benefit all parties involved but it's like tug of war without the enlistment.
I don't think I'm that difficult, well at least it doesn't seem that way, but there is always room for improvement in any individual. It seems as though the finger is always pointed at you and the target is in the center of your forehead, without warning though? This is not a laughing matter so I will not laugh about it. I believe I am normal I never had a problem with my attitudes or things of that nature before. It's weird how one person give you a diagnosis and others have been in your life forever wouldn't change a thing about you. I am very sensitive and that's a trait I wish I didn't have, I sometimes wish I could just not give a damn but I have yet to discover this within myself. I may yell and scream things I do not mean to hurt someone who I feel has hurt me, so I am acting out of pain. Maybe I can't please him because he doesn't want to be pleased. I used to be the fuckin best now I am told I don't know how to treat him? When I always gave all I have, when I give before I take, when I love before I hate. All I want right now is or life to be simple...... and the simplest I could have done was let go of the depression, the insecurity, the jealousy, the mental abuse,the comfort... I love me that's simple enough so I smile like I did 5 years ago...... SO SIMPLE